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How to Surrender Your Resentments and Feel Light, Happy & Free

Learn how to heal resentments + feel happier too.

Most of us are sitting on a stockpile of resentments from early childhood.  You may not be aware of these bad feelings on an hour-by-hour basis, but often they silently dictate your choices, your responses, and your actions.

Resentments suddenly come alive when triggered by situations, challenges, and the words or behaviors of others. They entangle you in endless emotional drama and suck the joy right out of your life.

These hurts must be healed if you hope to find genuine happiness and become a beacon of light for others.

Lately, I’ve been noticing how resentment appears on my emotional landscape far more than I imagined.  For example, I feel indignant when my personal boundaries are violated.  I feel annoyed when someone treats me in a condescending way.  I feel invisible when someone tries to place their agenda on me.

I may not feel resentful when the incident occurs if I’m caught in trying to please or feel I need to obey.  It may be weeks before the feeling of resentfulness arises. However, once I realize how my previous response was out of sync with my heart, it does appear.

Stepping out of the situation, saying, “no,” or establishing my boundaries in other ways begins the healing process for me. But shards of resentment may still present themselves months later if a part of me never fully healed and I still live with the consequences of a particular interaction.

Rest assured, I’m not constantly brewing in resentment.  But when a particular memory appears, it can trigger a deluge of resentfulness, which often catches me by surprise.  I’ll think, “Haven’t I healed that?”  Apparently not.

And that’s okay because healing doesn’t always happen in a flash.  Often, healing occurs slowly over time.

Lest I sound like some kind of resentment freak, I’m probably more acutely aware of resentments at this point in my life because I’m emotionally ready to heal them, and I’m dedicated to growing my sense of self-sovereignty.  I may even be attracted – in unconscious ways – to authority figures who rub me the wrong way and challenge my capacity for self-rule.  It certainly seems that way when I look back at all the testy encounters I’ve had in the past year.

Resentments may run deep, and it can be painful when they surface.  But it doesn’t always have to be overwhelming, difficult, or complex to heal them.

How I Heal Resentments

What do I do when I become aware of a resentment?

Sometimes, I work on it in psychotherapy.  This often leads back to an initial incident from my childhood, one that longs to be healed.  I only spend an hour a week in therapy, but often that’s enough to crack it open so the healing can begin.

Sometimes, I allow my dreams to process it.  I rarely record my dreams,  but I recognize their healing power.  I trust that my psyche is handling the gooey stuff for me while I sleep.  So further intervention may not be needed.  But sometimes I’ll bring a dream to therapy if I sense more work needs to be done.

Sometimes I ask, “Who am I angry toward?”  I allowed the boundary violation, didn’t I?  So instead of projecting on the other person, what can I learn from the experience?  Can I forgive the person?  Can I forgive myself?  I always strive to make different decisions and to act in new ways as a result of a resentment.  That, I feel, is true healing.

Other times, I’m just aware of the resentment.  I don’t judge it.  I don’t suppress it.  I just notice it’s still there.  I know that by noticing, but not acting on it, this resentment will slowly heal and weaken.  I don’t feel I always need to give a resentment loads of attention or energy.  Sometimes, the more you focus on the negative, the more it grows out of proportion.

Elizabeth Gilbert Quote | The Danger of Resentment

Meditation students sometimes ask me if it’s enough to simply be aware of your resentments.  They wonder if they need to analyze them and understand the why behind it all. It depends upon where you’re at on you on your healing path.  Analysis can be helpful, but there’s a danger of getting stuck in your head.

You can actually heal your wounds considerably through applying awareness when they arise without adding more thoughts, as long as you’re not suppressing or denying your emotions.  Mindfulness and awareness is a subtle art, however. You can also fool yourself by using meditation to numb yourself out if you’re not careful.

When you start working with resentments, use whatever skillful means work for you, knowing that as you heal you’ll gradually be able to rely on mindfulness and awareness more and more.

Wholeness Means Self-Acceptance

Wholeness means accepting yourself, hurts and resentments and all.  If hurts and resentments are coming to the surface, it’s a good sign that you’re ready to heal. There’s no reason to feel bad when these emotions arise.  It’s a good time, however, to use discernment so you don’t act in ways that are harmful to yourself or someone else.

While it’s good to be clear about your boundaries, it won’t be helpful to project on another person or group of people. Moving into blame or aggressive behavior can be a warning sign that you’re acting out unconscious patterns.   Unbridled anger possesses a far different quality than clarity and self-sovereignty.

At first it may be difficult to discern between projections and what needs to be rightly said.   But you’ll learn to make the distinction through trial and error.

Once, I reach clarity, I usually look at how to gracefully exist the unhealthy situation without a complicated exchange.  I now know this person and their methods are not a good fit for me, but that doesn’t mean they’re not perfect for someone else. Even in my case, maybe they presented the ideal obstacle on my path to greater self-sovereignty.  I don’t need to convince, change, or fix the other person.  I’m ready to move on.

You Aren’t Powerless

Some people will always violate my boundaries because they can’t read my mind.  They don’t necessarily know my boundaries unless I communicate them.

  • There will always be someone who speaks to me in snarky way because no one is perfect.
  • There will always be someone who pushes their agenda on me because people are working out their own hurts and resentment.
  • There will always be someone who wants me to do more than I want to do because that’s just how people are.

If I let unconscious beliefs rule the show, I will feel powerless and victimized by others.  That just leads to emotional entanglement and unnecessary drama.  And, it’s not true — I’m not powerless and neither are you.

Release Your Resentments So You Can Feel Light, Happy, and Free

When instead, I pledge to be aware of my resentments and work with them in the ways above, I feel light, happy, and free.  By continuing in this way, I believe a time will come when I no longer get involved in unhealthy interactions.  I’ll see them coming from a mile away instead of after the fact.  And generally, I’ll be less perturbed by the behavior of others.

In the meantime, almost every time I write an article like this, as if on cue, the universe provides me with a strong trigger  — sometimes revealing my progress, sometimes revealing my shortcomings and making me eat humble pie. So I empathize, dear reader.  I know it’s not easy to surrender your resentments, but I have every confidence you’ll master this skill with practice and time.

Take a few moments to look into your heart.  Are there any resentments hiding there?  If so, use one of the above methods to help you begin the process of healing.  And whenever a resentment suddenly arises, open up your self-healing kit – the steps outlined above – and apply the right medicine.  You’ll feel so much lighter and happier as the burden of resentments begins to dissolve.


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14 Comments

  1. I know just what you mean Sandra…when you said “In the meantime, as if on cue, the universe provides me with a strong trigger — sometimes revealing my progress, sometimes revealing my shortcomings.”

    I know it wasn’t meant to be humorous but it made me laugh because I find exactly the same thing. When releasing areas in my life that have been holding me back, nine times out of ten, something will pop up and I get to take a look at exactly where I am.

    I’m pretty okay with this these days. No resistance for me. And I’m fairly practiced in the concept of assuming something wonderful will come out of it. And you won’t be surprised to know that it usually does.

    Enjoyed your take on this as always dear one. 🙂

    • It’s so good you can flow with this, Elle. I’m getting used to it to. You’re right, resistance just makes it all the more painful. I’m inspired by how you assume something wonderful will come from it all.

  2. Such a wonderful topic, Sandra. I particularly like your points about not being powerless. “If I let unconscious beliefs rule the show, I will feel powerless and victimized by others.”

    I’m good right now with resentments. I feel that sharing what is on my mind in the most positive way possible helps me feel that I am in control of
    myself and my situation. When my boundaries aren’t in place, however, is when the resentments bubble through.

    Thanks for a timely reminder that is so needed for a peaceful life.

    • I’m so glad you feel good with resentments right now, Cathy. That says so much! You have a lot of courage, determination, and integrity. Of course, they sneak in for all of us, but clearly we’re getting better and better with handling them all the time. Yes, I’m all for a peaceful life.

  3. I find that sometimes when I am still bothered by the same situation despite having done some healing work, it is that there is a different aspect left unresolved that I need to address. There could be multiple aspects to an issue.

    I might have also dealt with the issue too broadly when peeling off the first layer. So it means that I now have to dive down to becoming more specific.

    I agree. It is not easy releasing resentment. We get bogged down by justified anger. But it is best to let it go, for greater peace and freedom.

    • This is so interesting and helpful to know, Evelyn. In a way, there’s a science to working with our emotions as well as an art. Once we know the process and have the tools, it all becomes so much easier. And, I agree, it’s always best to let go as we are able to.

  4. Sandra,

    Thank you for a thought-provoking and insightful post. It made me think that reaction to certain triggers which puzzle me might be resentments. I never considered that before. Thank you for bringing this into my awareness. It will be interesting to explore further.

    • You’re welcome, Debbie. That’s an interesting prospect to consider. I find resentments can be very subtle. Sometimes they don’t bother me for months at a time, but then a memory or trigger will appear and I realize the resentment is still there. I wish you the best exploring this.

  5. Thanks for clarifying these powerful points Sandra. It’s easy to let resentments build without being aware of them 🙂

  6. Sandra love your insights and practices. Mine are do Ho’oponopono, go to the beach and journal. Resentment lowers our vibes so important to make the shift quicklt xx

  7. Sandra, your post is very useful for me above all your words about not being powerless. I’m working on my physical signs of resentment (breathe, physical tension, thoughts in mind…)and your post clears my head!! Thank you very much.

  8. Hello Barbara, I’m so happy that my post clears your head! I’m inspired by your ability to tune into your body and let it lead you in a more positive way.

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