Archives for October 2013
I could write blog posts for Always Well Within all day long. But, I sometimes suffer from inertia when it comes to longer projects. A burst of wild creativity gets me going at the start. In fact, I feel unstoppable for a while. But gradually, inertia sets in when it comes to carefully coloring inside the lines.
The sensation of pushing a boulder up a hill can be unnerving when you have a deadline to meet, a promise to keep, or your livelihood depends on getting the work done. Inertia happily feeds the demon of self-judgment, stirs up the ogre of worry, and gives voice to the devil of self doubt. Whatever you do, don’t give these monsters free rein!
“My religion is to live – and die – without regret.” Milarepa
The capacity to regret your past actions is part of what makes you fully human rather than hardened against life. Regret is not wallowing in guilt or shame, although these feelings may be all mixed in, and need to be processed as well. Regret is the willingness to take responsibility for the impact of your actions, and to act accordingly.
When someone is harsh, I notice an immediate tendency to move away. This shows how easily I’m captured by self-clinging, more concerned about myself than the other.
That doesn’t mean I’m judging myself. I understand how deeply entrenched these patterns can be. Nevertheless, I would like to train myself not to close down my heart so quickly. A harsh person may be hurting and especially need love.