It might help me keep my feet on the ground! And I hope it will help and inspire you in some way too.
Like a sudden, dramatic fall storm, change seems to be popping out of nowhere and everywhere. Is change touching or disrupting your life too?
Listening to one of the interviews in the Earth Changes series at Evolving Beings gave me a new perspective on change. Apparently, there are many powerful planetary and astrological shifts in play at this time – like the Comet Elenin and the Uranas – Pluto Square (2011 – 2016). These forces are shaking things up quite a bit for individuals and society. Witness the Wall Street protests as one example.
It seems like a really good time to learn to dance with change, don’t you think? We’re in this together so let’s support one another.
Trust, receptivity, living consciously, being responsible for your actions, coming from the heart, and realizing a sense of connectedness with all others will help you navigate these stormy seas. Change itself is not good or bad. It just is. We can decide to flow with it or resist. My initial temptation is to resist, but my aspiration and intention is to flow.
Flowing with Change
On a personal level, change threw me for a loop in September. Believe me, anything you think will never change can and may indeed change. It can happen in a flash. What seemed familiar can instantly seem oddly unfamiliar and even foreign.
I felt the rug pulled out from under me, but it woke me right up to the truth of impermanence. How could I have forgotten? Holding on to a cozy, happily ever-after scenario will never work. Everything changes at one point or another.
My personal life changes lit up many old stories, learned imprints – deceptive brain messages – from the past. And possibly karmic imprints too. I was overcome with pain and sadness for awhile.
What did I do? I suffered at first. But I also pulled it together and renewed my commitment to being in the present moment. Instead of staying stuck in my story about what was happening, I allowed myself to be in my body and experience the painful emotions rather than pushing them away.
It’s not easy, but simply bringing awareness to and feeling how the painful emotions are manifesting in your body and being with the pain directly can bring healing and positive change. It doesn’t necessarily happen on the first try. It takes persistence.
I also amped up my spiritual practice in various way. I watched profound spiritual teachings on video. They soothed, reassured, and held me. I was reminded that my true essence is unchanging and that when I rest in that true essence all suffering dissolves.
I remembered my real purpose for being on this planet is to realize my true essence and serve others. It’s not about clinging and attachment although it sometimes seems that way. It’s not about getting sucked into the story in my head or the drama happening around me. Yes, I’m very human. I do get stuck sometimes. That’s OK. I will still love myself even when I am stuck. It’s all fuel for transformation and part of the roller coaster ride.
And I reached out to others, magical spinners and weavers of love, light, and genuine care.
Love Is the Answer
I’ve continued my daily practice of Loving Kindness.
I feel more strongly than ever that love is the answer! Self-love is the way to heal myself and purify those pesky imprints. Extending love to others heals me and heals them too. When we heal ourselves and heal each other, we also heal the planet.
But love must be in union with wisdom or it can become an ego-trip or neurotic martyrdom.
In moments when I felt struck by sadness, I focused on my heart, felt the pain, and remind myself, “All the love I need is right here within me.”
“Healing” is my 2011 word. And a strong process of healing has been occurring all year long. But all the emotional upheaval in September sped up my healing considerably. So many unconscious forces have bubbled to the surface this year; unlike any previous year. I’ve seen the face of dysfunctional patterns, ones that have “protected” me my entire life in one way. But imprisoned me in many other ways. It’s painful to see the shadows, but liberating too.
I now see more clearly that my first priority is healing delusion: all the living in my conceptual story about the world instead of seeing and being in the world as it is. Physical healing is secondary.
Through the Needle
But there’s movement on the physical front too. I received several trace mineral I. V. treatments in September. It’s ironic that there are so many people starving in the world, while many of us in “developed” countries have damaged digestive systems to the point that we can’t enjoy the abundance of food that is available to us.
Most people find these I.V. nutrient treatments a breeze. The substances are very pure, but they are in a slightly hyper-tonic solution and so can cause mild irritation to the veins. But that wasn’t the main problem. The first time, after an hour, the muscle or arterial spasm that gradually built up was so painful, I couldn’t continue. That’s not normal.
To counter this, the next time we used a local anesthetic, procaine (novocaine). I reacted to that in still other ways. Later I learned that ester anesthetics are not recommended for people with mast cell disorders. Interestingly, people who react to procaine are not usually reacting to the procaine itself but to PABA. Procaine metabolizes into PABA, an aromatic hydrocarbon. The next time, we used lidocaine and a very slow drip; the I. V. worked like a charm. I still feel some irritation by the end of the treatment, but it’s manageable.
As a result of these reactions, my husband found the medicalert system for me. The MedicAlert Foundation is a nonprofit organization providing 24-hour emergency medical information and identification service. This is a handy service if you would like an emergency response team or hospital to be aware of your medical history, allergies, intolerances, and special needs.
Align Your Website
I signed on for Gwen Bell’s Align Your Website e-course which began at the end of August and continues for 12 weeks.
I’m not planning a major overhaul of my blog. I actually quite pleased with the current theme. People say there’s a tranquil and serene ambiance at Always Well Within. What do you think? I’ll admit I was tempted to change themes after seeing the new style timethief gave to both her blogs, but I stood strong.
I was drawn to Gwen’s course because I like her commitment to expressing her genuine self. I also appreciate the way she weaves a spiritual perspective into her writing. And it was affordable…unlike many online courses offered these days – even those offered by bloggers I have appreciated in the past.
Sometimes, I wonder, have bloggers gone mad?
Gwen’s course is helping me think through how my site is organized and how it expresses my core values and intention. I’m looking forward to her tips on writing too. You probably won’t see major changes here, but rather quiet tweaks.
My digital discipline went by the wayside a bit as soon as I started working again in September. But I am spending less time on social media, one of my goals! And I don’t feel on digital overwhelm. I just need to set some time aside each week for digital housekeeping.
More change, I presume. I would like to focus more on writing when some time frees up. And I’m learning to take better care when it comes to finances, which appears to be on my cosmic calendar for a few years to come.
Sandi Amorin at Deva Coaching is focusing on self-care the entire month of October. She kindly asked me to write a guest post on the topic which will appear in the second half of the month. But why wait for me! Just pop on over there now and get the goods on self-care. You deserve it.
How was your September? Has change been touching you? What do you think about monthly reviews? I would love to hear from you.